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Happy b’day Kcsh. 🙂
There’s a word in the dictionary called ” PERMISSION”.
and, you can go spread it, hate me, for all i freaking care………………………………………………..
A text message came in, ” I love you Girl. So long since i’ve been wanting to tell you this. “
Accept, or Not? It’s either a Yes or No. While walking home, I’ve been thinking, Just what is Love all about? I bet many would say it’s a Feeling, Indeed, but, how long would this feeling last? Commonly said ‘ it does not matter if we are together next time, what matters is NOW we are ‘ . No matter what, His message, kept replaying in my mind, Many months ago, I’ve already had likings in him, who knew, it all turns out like this. We went through much, as friends, spending late nights out, clubbing, I NEVER thought, he would actually feel exactly about how i felt about him. Fairytale much.
This portrait seems so familiar, This woman, that man, that small little boy.
Hiding behind the bedroom door, with a joyful heart that there will be positive comments about me… The chattering began, the little boy said ” mama, where is jiejie? isn’t she coming along with us? ”
The woman replied ” son, there are some stuff Jiejie has to do, we are going through this without her”
Interested, I continued to listen, Some what, this Curiousity led me into deep deep thoughts when …
Man : “Now, there are only the three of us, Going through this obstacle, Jiejie is always not with us, We got to leave her alone, We got to forget her, Son, you understand?”. Confused th boy asked again : “but why papa? Why must we forget jiejie? I dont understand.”..Woman : “It’s not what we want, but Jiejie puts other stuff before us, Her family, is No longer important, we cant feel her anymore.”
slowly, i walked away, just what have i done? I lost 3 People that have been with me for the past 10 years, those that took care of me when im sick, those that buys me food when i am hungry, Those that Gave me LOVE when i needed it. But it seems as though, All these are just memories now. Left alone to survive, I went to pray.
God spoke, He showed me what should i do, what should i say. After that, i felt Love once again, With my tearstained face, i Thanked GOD loud and openly, many thought i was a maniac.. but i didnt cared anymore.
Soon, it all went back the same, on the streets, i made friends, Tons of them, I started smoking, gambling, gang fights, I lost all my trust in God. Till a day, one dreadful night, when i walked pass my Used to be alley.. I saw them again, It has been a year sinced they abandoned me, i felt this feeling of hatred once again.
And God came into my mind, Unwillingly, i forced myself to pray. i said this ” Lord, is this a test? Im sorry for forgetting what you had done in my life, what changes i had, when You came into every aspect of my life.. Im sorry, All i pray for now is my Family, that they will always be Healthy, and one day, they will know you. ”
After that, my Faith in God renewed, ever since that night, i felt the Presence of God around me when i pray, when i remember those Worship songs that i’ve sang. Slowly slowly, My existence is only known to God.
No one else, and it all, fades, away.
MARTIN GOH of course! sorry yup yup, the Powerpoint cant write TOO much. Or everyone will fall asleep.
In less than 8 Hours, you will be at Pasir Ris, Takecare of yourself alright. Really Thankyou for all the teaching all the advice all the encouragments, those are what i stand firm and strong to. You’re just like a unseen helper to Emmanuel, Helping in all ways to the best of your abilities. W/0 you , maybe i will be like, discouraged and stuff, Really miss those times that you had your LONG hair, and those times we spend together as an Eg too.
Everything that YOU do, is marked in Each and everyone of our hearts. I really appreciate you for talking to me when i just came to SHC, when i was alone. When u fellowshipped with me, when you teach me, when you gave me Bible studies, when you helped me along this Path that Im walking with God by your encouragements, your small little actions are always helpful in all ways. Maybe People might think its just two weeks,
But two weeks without any encouragement at all is pure Torture. X( . But i assure you, Emmanuel will grow, And Praying hard that all the new members will be rooted to SHC. and Damai will have revival before i graduate!
So yea, SMILE ALWAYS!. AND, TAKECARE OF YOUR THUMB. dont crywhen you see this ok. i know very touching. :X
Perhaps, You’re right. I guess………….
flowers are Loved 